No more homesick

Whenever I am very much engaged in church's work, I feel less homesick...


I led a small group session yesterday. I was being encouraged (or rather force... with all eyes looking at me when Pam asked "Who would like to do 10mins devotion for our next semester?" during our last session), to share my experience from Hillsong with my bible study group.


A week before this I met Pam at church during our worship team meeting. That night, AM told the rest about me writing new songs (making me feeling kind of exposed because I am more comfortable with doing work behind the scene, and I literally hid my face under in my jacket when she was doing the announcement!). After hearing that, Pam came out with an idea to get me to prepare some music which I wrote, and play it while she reads a Psalm or whatever. I suggested that I will come out with something that everyone can think about before hand, and share their thoughts during our meeting. They can even do some reflections while I play the piano. Pam continued saying we can even do some small praise and worship session, hah. So eventually I took the whole bible study session instead of 10mins devotion.


But... to my own surprise, I didn't use the piano at all during the more than an hour session yesterday. We did a "real" discussion and sharing session on God's Gift and "natural ability", and encouraged each other to develop our gifts and service Him with our gifts, which are uniquely created by Him. It was awesome to see eight girls shared their faiths and talked about their desires to help people in the community through the use of their special gifts. I was deeply encouraged and blessed from the session.


It was my first experience leading a group like this and they think it went pretty well. Pam think I shall grab more opportunity leading a group like this. :) Well, I think I prefer to be a follower, hehe. I think it is tiring to be a leader at all time, from one organization to another, from one event to another. Taking different roles allow me to consider more about others in their shoes, which is better I reckon, in experience wise.

Anyway, I will be tutoring first year student from next week onwards. I don't think I will go to that bible study group for the rest of this semester because the time clashes. Hmm.. will consider joining other Y-Pods small group which normally meet at night.

I Can Do It!

So what happened to decisions I made yesterday?

I didn’t manage to reach home by 6pm. I spent time fixing my bathroom curtain, chit-chat with few people on msn, and only managed to play piano for half an hour. Then after 9pm I was taking my leisure time hooking around the Internet, actually, Facebook to be exact, just to look at friends’ photos. Such a waste of time!

What about this morning?

I reached uni at 8.30am, not 8am, and I wasn’t doing any serious work. I am just taking notes, and planning on my Web 2.0 chapter. I feel extremely difficult to kick start a chapter.

Anyway, was checking my iGoogle countdowns, 369 days till End of PhD, and 188 days till Submit thesis. It was my initial planning, to graduate by birthday next year, and to submit (at least) my first draft by 26th January 2009. So, by 27th July 2008 this Saturday, I will have a half year period to work on my thesis before submitting my first draft, which is reasonable amount of time I think. My birth date and the thought of submitting PhD thesis reminds me of Lukasz, my current PhD idol, I want to learn to be as efficient as him, as successful as him.

From this Saturday onwards, I shall not allow any relaxation time for myself.

Physical health wise, I think as long as I take enough fruits and vegetable, I will be able to withstand the pressure from working extensively. I need to reduce amount of meat and dessert.

Mental health wise, I will totally depend on God. I am very confident that He will help and guide me throughout. I was actually worried about Anita Borg that I applied a month ago, but I guess, I will have to depend entirely on God’s grace. I should not worry about things which should never belong to me, and things which will certainly be mine, right? Oh I love You Lord, You are so wonderful!

369 days till End of PhD, 188 days till Submit thesis, 4 days till serious-no-joke work. YPH, u can do it, u can do it, u can do it!!!

Pathetique

I am upset. I can't play Pathetique 1st movement, my left wrist is not flexible enough, end up using too much arm strength. I will be exhausted even before half of the piece. :( I am upset with my inability... Will I be able to play it through?

Say hello to Mr. Beethoven!

An Organized Lifestyle

Today, I made new decisions (I always make new decisions, haha!).

Today, I have created this blog, solely for blogging in English.

Today, I have decided that I will have 2 hrs of piano practice everynight, an hour of English self-improvement practice (grammar or vocab), another hour of reading in English.

I will go uni an hour earlier, and go home an hour later.
I didn't know what is my actual office hour (or am I pretending not to know? :P), but lets make up one, haha!
So, if my usual office hour is supposed to be 9 to 5, then from tomorrow onwards, it will be 8am to 6pm.

If I am not doing anything that night (climbing / wushu / church), then 2 hrs piano, 1 hr self-improvement, and 1 hr reading, then sleep! If I am doing something, then I will only do 1 hr reading.

Hmm.. so, I think it would be better if I can discontinue wushu, because if I go for training, I will end up reaching home at 12am. By the time I sleep, it would normally be around 1.30am. I will wake up late the next morning feeling extremely tired.

Hmm... Looks good yea? Very organized lifestyle. Let us see whether I will be able to maintain it. It will be good even if it is only for one day, haha. Looking forward to a day of organized lifestyle!