3 months plan

I want to thank God for helping me to find and shape my destiny this time during my short trip back to Malaysia. For a long while, I find it difficult to locate my strength and trust my own ability. It has greatly affects the way I can move forward.

This time back in Malaysia, I found that I love Malaysia. Seriously, I love Malaysia. There is no place like home. I don't know why people like to migrate to other countries. Even though it is true that as a Malaysian Chinese, we can never be a Bumiputera, which means we will never be able to enjoy the privilege of becoming a "true Malaysian", whereas if you migrate to a country like Australia, you will be an Australian and enjoy the same privilege as a westerner, but bear in mind, your heart is never one. It is just different. Privilege is not everything. Just like when you look for a job, salary and benefits are not the only factors which determine whether you would love the job.

No doubt I love travelling and I love capturing this world with my own eyes, but I would also love to be attached to a base, to my own country, where my family is.

The reason that I went back to Malaysia last week is for attending a Sports Science Course. This course allows participants who passed the examination to become a certified sports coach. Nine of us from Huo Yuan Jia Wushu Academy took the course. Through out the 4 days lectures, I found that there is never a moment that I fell asleep even though I was truly exhausted from the flight, from spending time with friends and family, and later on, from the rehearsals that we went through for Citrawarna, Colours of Malaysia 2009 performances. In contrast, when I am working for my own studies, I am always tired, always feeling exhausted, always feeling sleepy, and I have never shown enough concentration and commitment to my work. It shows that I am more interested in the course than my Ph.D. and that I am still having enormous enthusiasm in wushu.

So, it is time to make up my mind.

First of all, I need to be committed to finish my Ph.D. thesis. Poh Hean, please be committed to finish your thesis! While I am doing this, and at the same time working hard to lecture in IKE and making sure that my student can pass the two units, I need to apply for job as well. 3 months! Is 3 months enough? God, please help me in this too! 3 months is all that it requires to lecture at IKE, then my job is done and I am not attached to any official job in Australia. Then all that it left is my duty in BHBCC music team. But as what Matt said, I can be who I am and who God wants me to be in anywhere, regardless of my physical location. My duty is to be a blessing to others. I have been doing this, and I will continue with it. My God is the God who provides, and I am sure He will find me some where like BHBCC that I can serve. So then in 3 months time, the only things which is left is Hillsong Conference in July, and then my time in Australia is done. So I need to apply job to work in Malaysia in July, after Hillsong conference (7^th – 10^th July 2009).

I should look for a job that allows work life balance because I still want to participate in wushu activities. Instead of becoming a wushu instructor, I can develop course materials (utilizing both Ph.D. and Sports Science knowledge), and I can be a choreographer (utilizing my knowledge in music and ballet). Well, will I get the job, and the the opportunity to do so? God will provide. If I am no shaped to be a great researcher, I shouldn't keep forcing myself and struggle to become one. Now, this sounds like a perfect plan giving me the opportunity to make use and further develop my expertise. I don't like boring jobs and I don't like repetitive jobs. I know that, and I will make myself excel in things that I should.

So 3 months:

1. Ph.D. thesis.
   
2. SIT102 and SIT104.
   
3. Piano.
   
4. Train my body in the morning, stretching and muscles training. Weak points are abdominal muscles and back muscles.
   
5. Every night sleep early and wake up even earlier.
   
6. Work in office and ignore noise. Office is warmer.
   
7. Do not care about using money.
   
8. I will apply Australia PR offshore.
   

I should apply for job now, in case there isn't much job opportunity after these 3 months. If I can get a job, it will pretty much become more stable.

Alright, submit my plan to God! Please bless me Lord, bless my plan. Give me strength to move forward. Give me commitment, intelligence and determination to work according to this plan. God, your call!