I want to meet God!

Love it when someone said "meeting God shouldn't be too hard". Well, it must be true, because God loves His people! (then how come I think it is hard?)

After reading first few chapters of brother Yun's book, I am really touched by the passion that Brother Yun has in sharing his real story about meeting the real God with people around him. I would really want to meet God too! Even though I might not be able to withstand any prosecution, I might be the most useless among all in His Kingdom, but I still want to meet God and experience God with my own eyes, with my own feelings! I don't want to read other people's testimonies. I want to experience testimony!

Yesterday I thought I should start fasting as well. Maybe when I fast I will be able to meet God like him? I want to meet God! even though I am actually a little bit afraid (or very afraid!)... But when housemate pass me the apple pie that she had made this morning, I am so confused with what my own desire! I can't stand having food on my table, I can't stand wasting food, I am afraid that I might annoy my housemate if I don't take it. Meeting God shouldn't be too hard, but even making a decision to fast is so hard for me! And tomorrow I am suppose to go to friend's house for dinner, it is his wife's birthday today, and I have already promised that I will go. I want to fast! Can mine be less difficult too?